Sunday, October 24, 2004

It's holidays~ i'm suppose to be super duper hippy happy.. but suddenly when i read chingling's blog, i realise i've lost closeness with her. we're only in different courses, but we're at the ICT/business area and we're only a block away. sometimes i'll have a talk with her on the phone, but not so often, to update our lives and so on. i realise i've alot of stuffs like my achievements, my happiness even my troubles and stuffs, i hardly communicate with her. same goes for her.. her real best goody buddy is Esther. they can communicate real well..

hmm maybe i had not put in much effort in this friendship cos i thought the chemistry would be there forever. maybe she has got a boyfriend, which i think i wouldn't be needed so much. maybe i'm too busy to care about so many things.. maybe maybe.. *shrugs*

well we used to go shopping every now and then, going opposite to buy snacks and ice cream, having snacks and the see-saw, bitching around, gossiping and stuffs. but not now. or rather, not since we started poly. we do do some catching up through the phone and sms sometimes, but its not enough. the distance between us got further, and we dont seem to understand each other more and more.

But there's some things which i realised. whenever she's got a boyfriend, it's a 'heavy investment' of time on him. and maybe some of 'heavy controlling' of her. well i'm not in the position to judge, but friends do need privacy. :D

yep~ we did went out a couple of times alone together.. It felt great. but the fact that she has to meet alex at a certain time restricted my enthusiasm. keep looking at my watch, so she's not late. okay, erm. haha its my own problem actually.. even myself.. like uh, having fun with somebody shopping around, and having to meet another person at a certain time.. that's y usually i give my time to a person in one day ..lol~

so sometimes, when i go out with chingling, i'd ask is she meeting anyone later, what time etc etc. or rather sometimes i dont go out with her because of these reasons.. but.. HIAK HIAK. now alex is in NS. HUR! she's mine. *evil laugh*

Plans for this hols..
must catch up with ... chingling, jieru (my boyfriend), yuan ting (my lesbian), and of course yuan ru (my darling). wahahah.. of course, wont neglect t0m, my husband. wahh.. and yeeeeep! my family! it's been some time since i go out shopping with them.. heh..


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